I Just Wish

I know the truth
You’re lost and afraid,
You say you want the best
But you’re not even sure what that is

If you don’t even know,
How can you crave it,
What if my best choice
Is death,
Cold and final?

I see through you lectures
All the speeches you give,
I know it’s just a script
With no real words on it.
You just waste time
Hoping I’ll break down
And spill my aching heart to you,
Confide in you,
Tell all my secrets,
And trust those who pinned me to the wall

Well, I wont do it,
And I tell you I won’t;
I tell you I just can’t
And you tell me you love me.
Well, love, as I know it,
Involves caring for another’s feelings.
If you cared, what would you do?
Would you attack me so?
I’m threatened by “love”,
If that’s what it is,
For it wont see that every question hurts
Every word makes me quiver

Anyone can see
That what you say makes tears
And every tear I drop,
Every crystal that forms on this iris,
Is another secret kept

Ever time you make me weep
A group of troubles I keep inside

You want honestly,
For me to tell you things;
I want for you to see
That all secrets in me
Are made confidential
By the only ones I cannot trust

*This is about my parents... dont anyone think this is about them and get sad, okay? I do NOT want that to happen!