Im tired of all the...............

I'm tired of yelling and tired of screaming, tired of saying we'll be OK. my mom is depressed and my dad is **tch, life was perfect until they broke up, my dad treated my mom like **** when they were together but somehow she still misses him, our house is a mess and i am too, punching out all the mirrors in the house so i don't have to see my face. i am weak are you happy now to know that you brought me down? i am powerless i lost control, out of my mind and into a world of hidden focused on imagination, none of you understand how happy i was until my life was torn apart, screaming so loud i shatter a a window. hitting myself constantly. I'm giving up and giving in you might as well just pull me under, I'm more screwed up than ever before and look I'm going nuts, tired of seeing this ugly ass girl oh wait thats me that i see in the hall, yep its the truth i see myself out of my own body, feeling as if I'm being held down with my legs tied and my lips stitched together with the thinest thread. pull the string one more time and my life gets sucked down the drain leaving the trail of blood in the solid white blood stained sink.