Jos it's not your fault...damn hun you need to see that. i don't know how to explain it right now..but really if anyone's to blame...it's me
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Hey jos.....
i no how sorry you are, how you blame yourself... i'm just sorry you found out that way whether i wanted you to know or not.but it shouldn't of affected us or torn us apart i suppose after you found out i expected support not for you to be angry at something not even all my family knew.....
oh well i supose its in the past......
kate xoxox