This terrible beauty haunts me with time
I need to cry
I need it so bad
And I don't even know why
But my bladed mind doesn't need a reason
My bladed mind doesn't need a simple sigh
It needs so much more
It needs to see me smiling, curled up on my floor
It needs to see my savor
It needs a reminder
It needs to know that I am really alive
It needs to know that I can strive
It needs only one thing
Just a few simple lines
Something my heart just cannot give
I can't hurt my family
By hurting myself
To do so I will not only be breaking my promise
But throwing it on a shelf
A shelf of shame
A shelf you throw things when you just dont care
A shelf for me that is very rare
No! I will stay strong
I'll suffer through my pain
Just to prove tha I can be sane
I only hope this will last
And that as time goes on
This urge will not burst
Into my worst nightmare
Taken over by my bloody thirst.
