Friendship secrets

As i step threw the door
of empty windows
i thought i was better
but i only got worse

as i look at my friends
i thought they were the best
then i saw threw that window
that they were only using me

they talk behind my back
i don't like her
eww shes gross
why do we like her

its whats going threw their minds
and i hear their thoughts
and carefully read their actions
i know who i really am

i don't want to be
with people who don't care
with our friendship build one lies
where only half know

why do i hang with people
i don't trust
y do i care if sum don't care back
where lyings a must

they r all i have
where will i go now
if i cant have a friendship
with everything and trust

so i pick up my razor
and hope this one counts
i dig deeper than before
hoping blood will come out

i cant stand it any longer
nobody can see though
my flaws
nobody can love me for me

so they just sit and get more mad than before
just because of little flaws
yet i never get mad at them

I'm upset with the world
and only me knows why
i want it to stay that way
so i pick up my razor and try

as i sit on my bed
knowing no one knows
i cry to myself
as the blood goes

hopefully this time
my life will end
forever and for good
all because of a non trusting friend