Strength

Y can't i be strong?
y can't i deal with all my pain inside?
y can't i hide all the tears that i cry?
am i to weak?... should i be able to live?
if god sees all the pain i'm in, then why doesn't he help me?
if he knows that the knife in the kitchen is my only best friend,
then why doesn't he send a friend to help me through my pain?
i feel so helpless so consumed by darkness!
why doesn't someone help me?
doesn't anyone care?
doesn't anyone see me?hear me?love me?
does anyone know how i feel?
can anyone show me, help me,
to be strong????