Leaving You

It had been 9 hours,
And still I sat motionless.
Almost glued to that chair,
Grasping that teddy.

Too horrified to move,
And too dazed to speak.
But I knew my time would come,
I had no other choice.

Tears flowed unceasingly,
Like they had for days.
As I slowly picked myself up
And headed for the door.

I reached for the handle,
And opened it carefully.
I closed my eyes,
Too fearfull of what awaited.

Regaining what composure I had,
My eyes peered open.
And I found your face
In the distance of the crowd.

Lord give me strength!
My heart cried out.
As I dropped to my knees,
Overcome with pain.

I cautiously approached,
My body shaking uncontrollably.
I went for your hand,
And prayed for comfort.

But not today.
It was unlike anyother.
You were as cold as winter,
With a heart of stone.

Your unexplainable caress
Crusified my heart,
And the pestilent look on your face
Slayed my soul.

I could feel your pain,
I could feel your sorrow.
The depth of your troubles,
And the selfishness of your actions.

You just laid there!
No answers,
Not saying a word,
Just a portrait of regret.

I walked slowly away
Still sobbing frantically.
With the image of your disguise,
Forever in my mind.

In memory of my baby, Matty. I love you, and miss you more than you could ever imagine.

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