Cries for help

My patience is starting to run thin
i clench my fists in hope
i won't commit a sin

my heart cries out
as i see him emerge
deep inside my soul
bleeds an angry surge

no matter how much i scream
or pray to feel differently
nothings ever going to change
so my secret must remain of hate for he

how i wish i could accept
at least for mums sake
if only i wasn't so weak
maybe i wouldn't feel this ache

why must i get so f**king stressed out
about the jerk living here
i need some help
to stop me shedding but another tear

this pain is like venom
growing worse, more poisonous each day
i want to suck it out
in the hope of feeling OK

mum, i am truly sorry
but you know how i feel
I'm trying to get over it
I'm really trying to deal