Watching my pain reveal itself

No one ever cares
Nor stops to take a second glance
Always laughing at me
I pretend they are with me
While deep inside
I’m breaking, hurting, always crying

Hating myself
Because myself hates me
Never wanted to be this way
Every night i sit
Sit and watch my crimson treasure
Streaming down my arm

People still laughing
Voices still b itching
And with nothing to say
And no reason to stay
I silntly escape
Running away quickly

Its one month later and i still sit and cut
And as i watch my pain reveal itself
I remember this day
This day one month ago

The day i pressed down a bit too hard
The day i bled too much
The day i feinted from loss of blood
The day i thought it was all over
The day, i thought, was my good night

Awoke in a hospital,
Drip in my hand
And my wrist was all bandaged
See, i still hadn’t left!

(C) Lucy Green