Time will not heal all Wounds

The first time I ever cut,
was to punish the evil me.
The hurt and pain that I caused,
was the only thing I could see.

As time went by my feelings changed,
I began to see anew.
All I needed was to bleed,
there was nothing else I could do.

I became so distant,
no one knew me anymore.
I lost all care for everything,
willing to be shown the door.

Again my thoughts shuffled,
the way I cut had changed.
'cut along the blue lines',
my mind was so deranged.

I thought this was the best way,
to leave this simple earth.
Soon i was proved wrong,
'hard and fast' could undo my birth.

I met a girl,
She really touched my heart.
She showed me what it would mean to leave,
and so I shall never part.

I know what people think of me,
I see it in their eyes,
i see them stare at my arms,
I listen to their lies.

I have learned to live,
I know I will never be accepted,
So I walk this lonely road,
as something unexpected.