TOdAy WiLL bE mY lAsT -_-

I can’t get the rope to my neck
The blade to my wrist
Or the pills to my lips
My happiness is something I’ve always missed

Sitting in my room
Through all the crying nights
Listening to my parents
And their endless brutal fights

Getting dizzy I fall down
My visions blurry and I can’t see
Turn around and walk away
My crying shoulder is something you won’t ever be

Carving thoughts into my wrist
I close my eyes like it’s not real
Cutting away the things I hate
The sting of steel is what I feel

Take the rope and make a knot
Count to three and make it fast
Step off this chair and let me fall
My fate I'll reach at last

[venting] im so defianitly venting right now im pissed beyond belief