There are always ups and downs in life
This is the Longest down I've had
Three months and eleven days
With always being sad
I remember when we used to laugh
But now I only cry
Wishing I could have control
But my tears are running dry
I'm tired of fighting and losing hope
I can't change you or me
Everything I feel is my fault
The weight will never flee
You said you'd change and I promised to help
Wishing only for the best
But as I see it we both fell further
Just like all the rest
We have our dreams we think our thoughts
But I keep them all inside
Nobody knows who I really am
Because I could only hide
I'm afraid of whats to come in life
Not knowing what to do
A failure to myself I know
But what hurts the most is that I failed you
I miss the people we used to be
Always looking forward to the next day
But all we do now is disagree
Not understanding what others say
We've both split to separate paths
And it hurts me so incredibly much
All that runs though my mind each day
Is when I used to feel your tender touch
Now the person I used to know
Traveled far and is lost
I've tried to bring them back but failed
And now I am paying the cost
The pain I feel it never leaves
I just wish it would go away
Everything I wanted to be
Is nothing of what I am today
I am weak and fragile and about to break
Searching for my strength
The road I travel is never ending
It is infinite in length
So this is my price my consequence
It is what I put myself through
And all of it is for one reason only
I am not good enough for you
I have caused so much trouble and hurt
And have not been there I know
My life is full of bad mistakes
And will forever reap what I sow
I'm sorry for the person I am
I did not want you to be affected
I kept on making the wrong decisions
And I just want it all to be done and corrected
I lost the person I used to love
I pushed them far away
It was the worst thing I could have ever done
I just wish that person would just come back and stay
*I wrote this poem to one of my x's who i was with for three years. It is really hard to say goodbye, and this is what it was all about. Most of my poems are actually about him, because he was my first for everything. It was almost three years ago now that I actually broke up with him, and i am a much happier person. Obviously i did it for a reason, and i am pretty proud of myself. I just found the poem i wrote him in a box, so i though that i would share it. I hope you enjoyed!
