Once again

I have feelings i cannot shake.
my mind is numb, my body aches
i feel so useless, stupid and sour
i zone in and out of reality for hours
as time ticks by i lose my mind
i think about things i left behind
and now I'm here without a life
no car, no children, not even a wife
i hope these things will soon change, or shape up, or rearrange
i cant stand feeling like this
it almost makes me slit my wrist
but I'm past that and this is now
ill find some way to kick this, but how?
i have nothing in my life to share
i don't have a wardrobe to wear
I'm not rich, and I'm not known
I'm not sane, my mind is blown
so i guess i sit and think of my past
i hope i can find peace at last