Won't Stop

Sometimes I just feel like giving up
Giving in to all the pain
And just leaving it all behind
I lie and say it's just a bad day
But it's really not
Everyday has been like this
But my act is just failing

People are suspicious
Of what's going on in my life
They think I may soon break
And start cutting again
But what they don't know
Is that I never gave it up
And now I don't even want to
I'm fine with the pain
The bleeding and the scars

That one night
It was worse than ever before
And I ended up not just cutting
But carving into my skin
30 separate cuts
To spell out two words
"Every drop"
Is written on my skin
Deep grooves carved in

Then last night
I only did it twice
Because I'm almost out of room
My canvas is nearly covered
But there's still enough room
For a few more cuts
And maybe those will be my last
But I know better
After my canvas is full
I'll just do another layer

Don't tell me to stop
Don't say it's possible
I already know that
If I wanted to stop
Then I'd be done
But I don't want to stop
And I'll never be finished
Because I live for the blood
Running out of my vein