My watery grave

With slits in my wrists
I climb a cliff 60 feet tall
As tears fill up my eyes
I soon begin to fall

As water fills up my throat
I soon begin to sink
My mind is getting darker
And it’s of him I do think

I have to wonder, if I had never met him
And he had never put me through hell
Than perhaps I wouldn't have jumped off this cliff
And my life would be going well

I have to wonder that if he had never hit me
Or played cheated and lied
Than perhaps I wouldn't have felt so down
And so sad and alone inside

I have to wonder though
How did he play me so well
Did he attach a few strings as I slept
I do wish he would tell

Well I guess it doesn't matter
How or why I fell for him
The point is I’m sinking to my death
And the chances of my survival are slim

But before you begin to feel sorry for me
There’s something I’ve been leaving out
He was there, and I took his hand before jumping
He deserved it without a doubt

Although he did struggle a little
He soon after gave in
He knew he deserved what was coming at him
At the sight of this I did grin

You see it was he that took me to the cliff
He knew what I was going to do
But what I forget to mention to him
Was that he was that I was taking him down to

You may think that’s selfish
Killing him along with me
But it was him that put me to it
He acted so selfishly

He didn’t want anyone to know how bad he treated me
And there was nowhere for me to hide
It was his suggestion in the first place
For me to commit suicide

So now as I lie in my watery grave
Beside me there lays he
And if it wasn’t for the way he treated me
This isn’t where either of us would be

i wrote this poem because my ex-boyfriend used to hit me and he made a comment to me that i should just kill myself. all votes and comments are appreciated. any suggestions on the name would help too.