Hiding

I'm sorry for pretending all along
I just wanted you to be happy
Because seeing you happy makes me strong
I cant be who I really am
No one understands me
Not my Friends,not Him,not even my Family
I still want them to not worry
Thats why my tears i have to bury
At the depth of my heart
I have to pretend from the very start
Am i being too selfish?
If i am,I'm sorry
All i ever wanted was for you to be happy
And yes its hard
Its hard always lying
My desire is dieing
No more pain,no more lies
No more crying
I want to be somewhere
That makes me happy
Not here
Where,what other people think I use to fear
But not anymore,It doesn't matter
I don't care
But being lonely is still my nightmare
The feeling i just cant Bare
But still,i face it everyday
No matter what you say
I still cant be OK
Thats why i kept my tears inside
Thats why i had to hide......