I wish i could trust you.

I don't know if it should feel like this
should i feel under so much pressure
should it always be on my mind
too much worry to measure

I love you, i do, i know it's for sure
but I'm recovering form past pain still
i don't trust you, not enough anyway
and i don't know if i ever will

It takes a lot for me to say i trust you
and to really mean it
there are only a few people in the world
who i trust completely if not just a bit

I think it's the trust thing
that makes me feel unsure
but i know one day I'll push past that
for now its not too much to endure.

I'm scared because the last time
i got hurt so much i went numb
but that wont happen this time
it'll be easier when the time does come

I'll push past the nerves
i know I'll pull through
because i believe you when you say
Emma, i love you