Can't cry

Must be happy, all the time, every day
People have it so much worse, how can I be crying
Why should I hurt, when other people are in so much pain
Slit my wrists alone, too many people dying

No tears I have to hold them back, stop them
Keep them forever behind closed doors in my eyes
Must be happy, It could be so much worse
Can't cry, when other people need to more
Sit on my own in the dark, with my knife that I love and despise