~My cuzin and I wrote this poem Together! this poem is alittle confusing and weird~
Hurting on the inside and the out
I didn't mean to hurt you
Now, I'm wanting to hurt myself
Wanting to find,
something hard and sharp
Just to make one more little cut
All i want to say is I am Sorry
Sorry that I hurt you,
I cant forgive myself
unless you forgive me,
forgive me for the wrong that i have done
I need your help to let go
As my heart begins to feel numb
my heads goes blank.
Hearing the devil deep inside of me
He chants repeateedly,
"shut up,and go home, you are all alone"
But the angel cheers me on
"he'll forgive you, just give him some time"
the battle is inside of me
and in my everyday life
they seem so big. as i drown in my own mind, the devil and angel fight deep within,
as i sit in stillness trying to free my enslaved mind.
the pain just keeps on coming back,
as if it was engraved in my mind
the battle is like thunder and lightning.
its the battle that i want done and gone
it's time for me to be free and move on
Time to get rid of the hatred that rings in my ears
causeing me to go mad as things war ranges on.
Every day i wake up the same
prepared for the battle and what it might bring.
The devil sings, laughs and plays his little games, the sngel tries to bring the peace,
But that is all hidden away.
Will evil beat good?
or will good beat evil?
the devil seems to be winning in every little way.
Will the angel from above catch up and bring me peace,
like before this bloody battle began in me,
I just wish some one will come to tame my pain,
I feel alone, with a brick wall around me
I feel like jumping off a building
just to stop this maddness from growing
I, Myself will take a knife
asnd cut the devil out of me
Stabbed it in my chest,
to feel a sudden relife,
that i hadn't felt in while.
then i shall close my eyes
knowing that peace is with me,
I finially tamed the pain.
The angel had won
If only I hadn't done this before,
I wouldnt have cried, so many tears of pain.
or felt so unwanted and unloved.
Having no memories of those I cherished
those who i love never forgave me and left me all alone,
so i never forgave myselfMy mind began to rang and anger
with no one to talk to
or share my feelings with
I was trapped in a world of my own
so now i am finially free
from the battle within me.
