The one.....

Salty tears stinging my wrists
As each one slowly drops onto my freshly open wounds
Never wanted to do this
Never thought I would
The pain has got so real these past months
People I thought cared…. didn’t
People I thought were there. …weren’t
People I thought understood…didn’t
No one really saw that I was in pain
No one really knew
I tried to hide it
Only leaving a few hints here and there
They said they were my best friends
They said they knew me better then anyone
Then how come they never tried to help?
Always wrapped up in their own life to care about mine
I didn’t want to make them upset
I didn’t want to hurt them
I didn’t want to make their lives anymore difficult
Never did I think that I could use my pain for pity
Bringing up my past was something I didn’t like to do
For others it was a joy ride
They got pleasure out of seeing me hurt
For awhile I thought I had no one
Until I realized I had someone who really cared
I knew that he was there
I just didn’t know how to ask for help
I need so much love right now
Only one person could give that to me
My friends…. they tried
My family…they helped
My savior Jesus Christ…. Saved me
Saved me from my past
The sins I made
The pain I went through
He carried me when I was hurt
He helped me through everything I needed help with
That’s why I love him with everything I have
Every night before I lay myself down to rest
I pray to him that he will forgive me
And that he will always be with me
Please send down a Guardian Angel
To help my family…
My mom especially
I love you dear Lord…
In Jesus Name I Pray AMEN

My mom\'s friend Jessica, really needed the Lord and so i wrote this for her and me both ..i didnt cut my wrists tho..but she did.