I Wish He Knew...(Resubmitted)

**Really Long...But it means a lot, Please Read**

Is he extremely heartless
Or is it that he doesn't know?
I'm so sick of these heartbreaks,
I'm almost ready to wipe away
these tears and go.

Of course, i still love him
and that feeling will stay,
but he has someone else on his mind,
He's the one pushing me away.

Sometimes I think i don't need him
and i force myself to think that i don't care,
but then we talk and see each other
and once again,
my feelings are there.

It seems like the closer you two get
the farther you and i grow apart,
I know this is going to continue to happen, and sooner or later...
Maybe it won't hurt my heart.

Anyways, I'm Stephanie
Everyone knows that I'm strong,
but my heart is telling me different
My heart is telling me that everyone else is wrong.

Yeah, I know you're not mine
and that I shouldn't be worrying about this,
But i want you to be thinking about me, I want to be the one that you miss.

I wish I could read this to you
and tell you how i feel and think,
But every time I start to tell you...
My heart begins to sink.

When I open my mouth to talk to you, The only thing that come out,
are the tears falling from my eyes,
I think of all our memories
and all of my late night cries.

If I'm going to read this to you,
there's other things I want you to know,
Like how i hate saying goodbye to you, Late at night...
When we get off the phone.

Another thing i want you to know,
is how much i think about you each and every day,
how much I think about telling you,
everything I wish that i could only say.

And then at about 10:00 o'clock
When we finally get on the phone,
It's like my whole heart changes
and i convince you that I'd rather be alone.

It's not that I'd expect you to care,
even if you knew,
But God Damn It ______,
Why can't i get over you?

I always thought that it'd be better if you knew the way that I still feel for you,
But now, Is it even worth it?
I mean, What good would it really do?

You act like I'm the person
that you call when you're bored,
or ask to hang out,
When you have nothing to do,
But it's not like that anymore,
I don't have to see you.

I thought you'd know how it feels
to love someone who doesn't love you back,
You act like you weren't in the situation,
A few years ago in the past.

But I guess you don't realize
how much hurt that i face,
To know that the 8 months we were together...
are now all erased.

How do i care so much for you,
when you don't care about me
even the littlest bit,
But It's actually the end, I give up...And my feelings,
I should just admit.

So, here it goes...
I'm letting it all out,
but i hope that after i tell you,
your heart's not filled with doubt.

It's like, after we were over
My feelings only grew,
I never realized how much i cared,
until i actually lost you.

But now I'm too late,
You're not mind anymore...
You have someone new,
and I'm slowly being pushed out the door.

Yeah, I know it's my fault,
I know that I'm the one to blame
But I wish it was back to how it was,
i wish it was all the same.

I guess i should stop wishing...
It never did any good for me,
It's time to snap out of this fairytale,
I'm going back to reality.

But, Maybe one day you'll realize,
How much love that i have to give,
But I hope you're not too late,
I hope I haven't moved on with the life that I need to live.

~Stephanie