Tear Stained Cheeks and Bloodshot Eyes

This promised forever is a promise that never seems to last.
I did my best to try, but as always I gave up much too fast.
Wishing for the best while secretly hoping for the worst.
I know I should be with you; it doesn’t matter if it hurts.
It was just one sentence, but it was something I’m going to regret.
It would have been easier to say it had I known you would forget.
But you always say the words that I just can’t resist.
It’s only a matter of seconds until I’ll be drowning in your kiss.
Then I’ll awake with bloodshot eyes and tear stains on my face.
All the emptiness I feel always seems to take your place.
Down the line I know I’ll miss you but at first I just don’t care.
I live off of memories of times when you were there.
Sometimes you bring a smile but it’s usually a tear.
Just one word and there I go, I’m drifting away from here.
In your arms I find a safety net to catch me when I fall.
Only then I turn around and realize you never caught me at all.
I’m lying on the floor with your hands around my neck.
You’re yelling that you love me, and I’m just a nervous wreck.
Count to five, and close my eyes, expecting it to end.
When I hit six I realize that you’re still only my friend.
It’s not a game I’m good at, but I always aim to win.
With you its like heaven, only filled with deadly sin.
While I over-analyze the silence, you just pray that it lasts long.
Just once more with feeling, then I promise I’ll be gone.
It was just a lie, but I believed without a second thought.
Maybe it was meant to be, but it’s more likely that it’s not.
I take time out of my day to remember things long past.
But I guess this promised forever is promise that will never last.