Just Keep Cutting

With one single cut
i want this all to go away
with one single cut
i want it all to disappear
with one single cut
i want to forget all about you
with one single cut
i want this life to end!

please free me from this burden
the burden that i always see
the burden looking right at me
when i look into a mirror,

can't stand this awful image
can't stand this awful body
can't stand this awful person
can't stand just being me

i cut myself. so who cares
maybe its my way of relieving my pain
so you found out my secrets
TYRONE I DON'T F UCKING CARE

you tease me about the way i am
you tease me about the way i was
you tease me about my past
my secrets
i really hate you for laughing like that

maybe i told you because i trusted you
maybe i thought you could help me through this
maybe i thought you were someone else
maybe i thought you would be there!

but apparently I'm wrong
like usual, always wrong
never thought you could be so cruel
why do you do this?
JUST STOP TRYING TO BE COOL!!!

would you forget about your friends
forget about your reputation
it wouldn't kill you to
just once, try to understand

my secrets aren't a joke
they're real
they hurt
they slowly kill me off
I'm sorry for ever trusting you

raped at 14
NOT A JOKE
cutting myself
NOT A JOKE
crying every night
it really isn't funny
or are you not who i thought you were

so now i couldn't care
about anything this world brings
no matter what happens to me
IT'S ALL A F UCKING JOKE

i take my blade
i hold on tight
i cut and slice and slash all night

1 cut for insults
2 cuts for laughing
3 cuts for telling you
and the rest
i cut for just being me

let me cry myself to sleep tonight
let me sob into my pillow
let me bleed onto my blanket
bleed the blood from my crimson wounds

let me release these fears
let me release these tears
let me live my life
the life I'm longing to leave
please don't tell me it will all be OK
because in the end, it never is!

with one single cut
i want this all to go away
with one single cut
i want it all to disappear
with one single cut
i want to forget all about you
with one single cut i want this life to end!

(C) Lucy Green

*sorry for having a name in it, you probably don't know what this poem is going on about, but thank you for reading it anyways, please comment on my poem, i will return the favor*