I thought i was doing so much better
thought i was moving on
but it hit me yesterday
that you really are gone,
that we are a thousand miles apart,
i am drowning again
and i don't know why
i miss you so much
i hate you for that
i hate you for not being with me,
for being with her
all these things i can say
while my heart is pounding
while my tears are flowing
why do you haunt me so?
why can't i think of anything else but you?
you who were wrong and vicious
i believed in you
but you never believed in us
