Never coming back

I'm sick of living this big lie,
That leads to nothing good.
I'm sick of wanting to die,
Because of this horrible childhood.
These feelings come and go,
With me never understanding.
Why I always feel so low.
With these people who are so demanding.
"Do this, do that," It's all I ever hear.
They just won't leave me alone,
and that's my biggest fear.
Fear of being sad all my life.
Fear of being lonely.
Fear of ending it all, with that stupid knife.
I sit on my floor,
Crying out with pain,
Closing the door,
To my life.
Ending it all,
with the knife.
Gone forever,
never coming back.

--yeah i know it sucks..just in a bad mood..as usual