I keep replaying it in my head
just what is was that doctor said
that I couldn't be given it back
I guess it's something I'll forever lack
some days I just wish I could feel
I can in my dreams but I know it's not real
it haunts me at night, it's in my dreams
I don't know who to turn to when nothings what it seems
some days when I wake up my body doesn't go
it's on these days I wish I didn't know
I don't want to know what's wrong with me
I just want it to go away can't you see
they tell me I just need to control it
but they don't know what it's like to be me not even a little bit
I went in thinking it could be reversed
now that I know the truth I just think I'm cursed
I never thought this could happen to me
I should've been smarter and not so naive
I may never understand why god gave me this
let me tell you being normal is something I miss
I have been waiting fifteen years for a cure
and let me tell you something I know for sure
I live with these problems each and every day
and I know it's something that won't just go away
but even with these problems I've learned to cope
I still go on strong and won't give up hope
even though I may get frustrated and want to give in
I must keep going, if not for me then for my kin
some days I get so depressed I may say I want to die
but inside I know thats a lie
some times I get so angry that I let it get this bad
and now I just really miss what I had
at night I sit in the dark tears falling from my face
I just wish everything would erase
but I've decided that I'm not going to let this bring me anymore pain
because all the things it put me through were driving me insane
but I guess I'm lucky, I'm still alive
for I will get through this, I will SURVIVE!!!!
~I have been diabetic for fifteen years, and because of it I have diabetic neuropathy. I can't feel my fingers or below my knees. They told me it can't get any better only worse until they can cure diabetes. And I'm only sixteen years old! But I will continue to battle this disease and keep going strong!~ ~Please R/R it would mean a lot to me!~
