Trying so hard to live back in the past the tears may phade but the pain and memories will forever last my heart is leaping through my eyes im choking in my own tears time went by so fast i couldnt believe i knew you for years as i looked at your body a million flash backs filled up my head i thought i was dreaming you couldnt be dead forcing tears back some leaped through my eyes i never thought you would go though everyone dies i tried to be strong i tried to keep a straight face as bishop was preaching bout how you went to a better place it hurt me so deeply i couldnt even explain you died from cancer and left me with great pain not knowing what to do looking up to the sky tears falling down asking god why did he not know that i needed you feelings so deep inside of me turning my insides black and blue crying my eyes out feeling weak and so numb wanting to end my life screaming rip mary goodrum
