Fades...

My heart fades,
from red to black,
my tears of crimson red,
tell you i want you back,
the pain i feel,
is unbearable,
i need to do something,
thats not understandable.
i cut myself,
some big, some small,
i make the lines with a safety pin,
or a knife,
or i just fall.
i use this technique,
to put myself to sleep.
to stop today from getting any further,
i feel i should OD,
but that shit sucks,
it just makes it worse,
i don't really want,
puke all over my shirt...
i know what to do,
2 pins in the chest,
that will surely show you,
how i am messed....