JUST THE WAY THINGS ARE

Why do we find it so hard,
To be better than we are?
Has our fuse finally blown out?
Or, have we just realized what us is about?
In the beginning it was all fun,
Never talking and leaving holes, our baggage weighed a ton.
I fell in love at first sight,
You took a little longer but soon joined this rocky flight.
We talk of kids, we talk of marriage
But I think us is becoming nothing but damage.
Your alarm sounds each morning,
And when you leave I lay there mourning.
Your bed is not my own,
But in my own I feel so alone.
My heart breaks at the thought of you gone,
I think that is why I have stayed and tried to hold on for so long.
The fighting, the bickering is taking its toll,
I keep asking for answers to help my soul.
You are right, we are just so different in many ways,
You told me this from the start, now I am the one that pays.
Who said age was just a number?
That number is now obvious like a big strike of thunder.
I hear it rattle, I hear it hit,
If I was only older, maybe we could make it.
Opposites attract,
But now we are stuck at this dead end track.
On our way to the end,
Of something I wish never began.
I say this but I know I am lying,
Because every moment without you I feel like I am dying.
The things that once amused us about each other,
Are the same things that we are striving to change about one another.
I feel lost, so helpless, and confused,
Just tell me how to make you happy, whatever it is I will do.
I have no career, I am just not there,
You are passed where I am at, your choice will be more than fair.
I guess I just fear,
You will find somebody that you will love to hear.
She will make you change to be your best,
And you will stay home for her because you would rather do nothing but perfect that nest.
You will have our kids, and buy our home,
Use the names we chose and never fight when you are alone.
I will not be sad, I will not envy her,
Because I will see your face and know you are just happier.
Don’t worry I’m not crying, not one single tear from my eye,
I will walk up to her and say “congratulations, tell him I said hi.”
I wish we could be more than better,
Even mostly, happily ever after.
But we just know we have grown apart so far,
And you said it best with “that is just the way things are.”