So What???

You saw the scars upon my wrist
you saw the tears welling in my eyes
i never thought you would be so surprised

you know what I've been through
you know my whole life
f UK it Shane, just say so what?
you never cared for me anyway

the truth comes out
but does it really
were you concerned
or just mocking my pain

so what, right?
so what if i drew some blood
so what if i intended this
so what if this is my escape
it doesn't mean I'm twisted!

repeatedly watching my crimson treasure
trying to focus what i feel inside
trying to hide who i really am
trying to hide, myself from him

he was the one that destroyed my life
he was the one that made me cry
he was the one that hurt me all the time
he was the one that fully screwed me up

so what if i made a mistake
so what if i cut a bit deep
so what if this has really happened
so what if now I'm not really me

i might be gone now
but i was already gone than
I'd rather be like this
I'd rather be dead
than what i was before

just a lost girl
trying to find her way
trying to escape
trying hard not to end this way

but here i am,
or there i was
now where i belong
not here anymore
away from this
i escaped from this

all because you fuc ken showed your face!
you messed me up
this is your fault
and some how it's me
that still had to pay!!!

(C) Lucy Green

*OK well, this poem needs some information, see i was raped, and a guy i know, Shane, saw the scars upon my wrists, asked me why, when he already new, pretended to care than laughed at me behind my back to his friends, and the guy that raped me is now beating me for telling the police on him, thanks for reading my poem too, i love you all so much!!!*