So this is what you've reduced me to
all of this pain and these tears
although I was the one who walked away
it still hurts to face my fears.
The endless nights I lie awake
wondering what was to be
and then I wonder as I cry
are you still in love with me?
I want so much for us to talk
to try to work this out
I miss you Chris, I really do
but you say you're filled with doubt.
You tell me you love me, it hurts you inside
because I always walk away
this time when I said I was done
I really meant I wanted you to stay.
You said it hurts because I always break up
but sometimes leaving is easier than staying
so I said "Get out, pack your things"
but in my head "I love you" I was really saying.
And now you're moving out of state
because you have no other place to go
I'll never get to hold you again
and that hurts more than you'll ever know
I wish you'd give us another chance
that sounds bad since I was the one who ended it
each time I said "I love you so much"
just know that I never pretended it.
Think of me when you're on your own
I'll be here if you ever come back this way
and please reconsider what we could be
I really wish that you would stay!!!
