why don't you tell this girl how you feel. I'm sure it will be hard for you but you are gong to continue to make yourself crazy just by knowing that she doens't know how you really feel. You need to communicate your feelings to her as hard as it may be. You may be surprised, she may really care about you. You have to not be so afraid of losing her or being rejected, at least you will know where you stand and you can move on with your life without her. if need be. The last verse of your poem says it all, you have to find out what she would do if she knew how you felt. you can e-mail me if you want patrinya82@yahoo.com. e-mail is wrong in my profile