My past is an open scar. It bleeds eternally and with no mercy. What once was a secret life was torn outside of my soul and exposed. People saw me who I really was...and now they spurn who I am. So they decide to hurt me and hurt my friends...all because of a stupid game...
When will this sorrow end?!
How can I go on each day when strangers' eyes lurk around the corners watching to make sure you are okay while "within my grasp"... I tell you IT IS NOT FAIR...but a wise person once told me that nothing in life is fair...oh how true.
I want to die to everything that the world is, and every time they look down upon me and effects my friend's life...I die. I die to a part of my old self. Quicker than before, I am becoming apathetic to the world, for it deserves no less.
Silent screams rage within my mind
No silence comforting can I find
Sole purpose tonight is to discover a love
From the aliens of the White Earth.
Screams voices to my ear
Why is it me of whom they fear?
I have done nothing to warrnat this strife,
except dress in black and in chains.
These signify what they have done,
They chain me up and make me run
I cannot see through my tears anymore
I love you...so much I love you.
They made me break my promise this night
Made me hide from your eyesight
Christianity beckon you to come
And all you want to do is have me hold you gently...
I sat there with eyes so closed
Calm and waiting for you; disposed
I am nothing without a clear mind
And they are so completely blind
They know not of what your heart
Can do to make severe pain start
So they blame the ignorance to me
A demon in black I am named to be...
Confused and shattered, I still love you
it is not your fault, my dear.
I love you still...but I must hide
Must hide from all who know me
Must hide from the cursed day of birth
I hide in shadows
I hide in the wind
For I wish not to be seen by any other soul but you...
...You alone understand who I am
And it is you alone who does not turn away...
