I cried myself to sleep tonight…

I cried myself to sleep tonight
Remembering all the things I can not do right

Membering all the painless cuts
And how my life is in an endless rut

I remember, dad, that I lost you
And now I don’t know what to do

Daddy did not even care
And mommy is never there

I scream “I can’t take it anymore”
As my life crumbles and I fall to the floor

All I know is I do not want to live
Because life has nothing more to give

I have not learned one thing new
Except that I can’t escape all the you’s

I want to hear heaven’s ring
And listen to all the angles sing

I want to soar threw the sky
But I can’t do that until I have died

So please I beg you take me soon
It's not like my life is not already ruined

Daddy is gone, and mom doesn’t care
I just wanted her fingers to run threw my hair

I wanted daddy to love me and kiss me goodnight
And I wanted him to tell me that it’s all alright

I do not know how much more I can take
This whole life has been just one big mistake

God are you listening to my silent prayers
Please take me, I give you this dare

You will do this for me right?
Because I want this to be my last night

I don’t want to live like this
All I want is death’s precious kiss

To lay under the earth’s dirt
To be able to hide all life’s hurt

So here we go to the journey above
I get to forget that I never have loved

But hey it is worth it, to get angel wings
And finally be able to happily sing