Emotional scars

It hurts not to be able to love someone not to be able to give anyone your heart being afraid to let someone love you when you don't even know where to start i wonder am i ready for love or is it just something for me to say I've loved before but i don't know what love is or maybe i just don't know what it feels like to be loved back love can bring you happiness but it also brings you pain love can be your worst enemy or your best friend i need love now more than anytime before but you cant open up one thing when you haven't closed the other door my heart's been closed for a long time and i want to open it again but in order for someone to love me i need them to take time and be my friend i need someone to love me for me and never want me to be anything more my heart's broken right now and i thought that only me,myself,and i would make it mend but i realize that it takes more. i have every other type of love from my family and my friends but I'm missing the one that comes from someone who's more than a friend i know it's not gonna be easy i know it's gonna be hard but I'm ready for someone to help me mend my heart that's been emotionally scarred.