Dedicated to Rose, My Best Friend

It was a Wednesday
I saw you after school
A normal conversation, but I missed the signs that you were sending

We both had to go our separate ways
Right before we did, you looked at me with a certain look in your eye and told me that you loved me
I looked at you and gave you a hug and said I loved you too
I said I would see you tomorrow, yet you didn't respond the same way
You looked at me again and hesitantly just told me Goodbye

Why I didn't catch these signs I wish I knew

We go our separate ways, and then I got to school the next day
In art class, making a yellow coffee cup for my mom
I am told that you had committed suicide last night

Why I didn't call you that night I wish I knew

In shock, I leave the art room
Dazed I go to the library forgetting the rest of my classes
I found out others knew too
We were told you were in critical condition and there was a good possibility you would make it
Except you didn't

Why I didn't ask you how you were doing, and tell you that you were the best friend anyone could ask for, I wish I knew

You left me with just the memories of us together when we were young
Remember us on the playground playing on the tire swing?
Remember the sleepovers we would have every Friday night?
Remember the fact that I love you as a sister?
Remember the idea of us moving in together right after high school?
Remember how you left me alone to face the world without you?

I just remember the cries of everyone the second we were told you didn't make it
I just remember that my heartaches every time I think of you
Rose I miss so much, why did you have to go?

*In loving memory of Rose on March 10, 2004*