Make or Break us

We once were so loving
But now it's disappearing
As I seek and give more love,
I receive what seems not much.

In my mind I live the past
Something that didn't last.
Now I live for the future,
Which neither knows for sure.

Why so many problems?
I thought we could fix them.
Yet they continuously return to us.
Making me feel so useless.

I have so much in my mind,
To get better I need your time.
I have so much stress.
Everything is just a mess.

There's so much I'm sacrificing,
But that's not what you're seeing.
I want to be treated special,
Like no other girl at all.

I want to be the princess of my knight.
Yet we seem to always fight.
I try to help you understand me.
But you only get annoyed and angry.

I've read what you wanted me to read.
Now I want to turn over a new leaf.
The book said give what you need.
Then I will receive my needs.

I've tried to understand you,
And try to give what's true.
But it's so hard for me
That you couldn't see.

You say you want to be better.
But there's no motivation, what so ever.
All you feel is for yourself,
At times, you're not even afraid to lose me.

How can I be happy?
If we don't give 50/50.
I feel everything is my fault.
I should be locked in a vault.

I need your support right now.
I'm going through so much in this town.
You know what I'm going through.
That's why I come to you feeling the way I do.

You really think I want us to argue?
Why would I want that relationship.
If I could help it, I wouldn't need you.
Nor would I come to you like I do.

Instead of comforting me when I'm sad.
You easily get mad.
Then I deny my true feelings.
And start apologizing.

It hurts to apologize for my sadness.
And go to give you your happiness.
It hurts to hide my feelings,
Therefore, I haven't been healing.

So much for someday after today.
I hope to god I make it with you
I want to be with you.
I hope you feel the same too.