Secret Sorrow

I watched you from afar
I watched you from the shadow
Afraid to show myself
Afraid to tell you

You were always popular
always hanging with the crowd
while I'm just someone
An unknown human being

I'd dream of you
all through the night
and sometimes think
that you'll be alright

For someone like me
to think these thoughts
Is like a bug trying
to get through metal

I know it's forbidden
But i can't help it
It's too hard to resist
I think I'll go crazy

My heart feels heavy
when your with another girl
I know your not mine
But It's not my fault

The day before
school was ended
I gave you a glance
hoping to be noticed

I think I saw
A flickering smile
But that might have been
just a me going delusional

My dreams soon became
nightmares that haunt
me through the night
and my living days

I can't hold it back
I can't live through it
Notice me please
before i lose it

But the sad thing was
it never came true
i got sent to the asylum
because of you

It's not your fault
i know it's mine
but please notice me
just once and the last time.