Unpretty.

Why can't I be pretty?
I wouldn't have to be this thing again,
I'm a creature in this world,
I wish the phone would ring.

I sit alone,
Waiting for the day,
I will escape my reality,
After the next may.

I love to dream,
Because it's better than reality,
I can dream things that aren't possible,
In my reality.

I was happy for a moment today,
For the guy that I love,
Gave me a hug,
After that I was flying on the wings of a dove.

For when I see him,
I am happy but also sad,
Because I know I could never,
Be with him oh it's so sad.

So I will carve the words that give,
Me pain into my skin,
It'll say "Ugly and Fat",
I'll use a pin.

I'll wait until the next day,
When I feel this pain again,
Which shouldn't be to long,
I will wait until the time comes again.