The doubt I realize was always there. Satan had me and for once I didn't care. Now as I sit in this chair I realize my new found love for god. Everything can be considered chance or not. I think however that god has a plot. One better than anything known to man. Or maybe anything that man can understand. I find myself lost at words as I find myself lost in his love I wonder how I could have ever doubted that he was there. I find myself suddenly acknowledging how evil Satan is and the army he has put forth is strong. Not strong enough but strong all the same. Though god had a plan for me he new I wasn't lost forever though he new I would eventually come back to him as I aways do. I'll never be able to give back to him what he's given to me but I will love and praise him forever
