My Haven

I use to be abused
I had a mother who was a drunk
The only thing to do when she would start hitting
Was to run to my truck

It was my safe place
The only place I would cry
I would sit there for hours
Just escaping the abusive world

My dad was out of town
And my mom lost my respect
I hated her for a long time
Then I learned to fight back
She stopped the hitting
And I still havnt givin her
My full respect back

People look at my truck in envy
And I see it with pride
Its my one friend
That hasn't made me cry

I'm tough and I don't like my tears
But I lay in my haven
Sometimes at night
Away from the world
Escaping my fears
Because there in my world
It's just me and my truck

I know its not alive
But it still close to my heart
I cant close my eyes each night
With out it being there in the dark

But my dad talked of selling my haven
My one true happy place
This is where I go to cry,
And this where I fell protected
I kissed my boyfriend for the first time in this truck
And this is where we talk
Away from my snopping mother
And all my bad luck

We plane to take it somewhere together one night and just drive and be at peace
But that didnt happen because I was going to loss this one piece of my heart

I didn't cry for my lost dog
Or after the death of my great grandfather
But I cried my eyes out
When I thought I would lose my truck

My heart broke one night
As I sat in the back
Darkness surounding me
I held hands with Brandon
Watching the stars
And he kissed me in his usual way
I felt happy then sad
I would lose my Haven
And lose my past
I love this boy
He is my future
But I also love my truck
As if it was a Heavenly creature

It sounds silly but I still drive it in my
dreams today
I can still fell the wheel in my palms
And the stick as I shift gears to get away
The oil on my hands
As I work on the engine
And the soap
As I wash the grill and the rims
As I wash my truck for no reason

Its been a nightmare
A endless dream
Since the last day
That I saw my Haven
It was my real happy place.
My safety asured

Now it seems hard to stand
And hard to see the stars
But I will not shed my tears
Not with out my truck here to stand gaurd

Dedicated to my dream truck
A black 1994 Z71 pick up