My heart was suffocating,
Suffocating from your closeness.
You were always there,
You always crowded me with love.
I wanted to get away,
But you always held me close and never let go.
I tried to get used to it,
But I never did.
It just got worse,
I slowly drifted away from all your love.
I was wishing that you wouldn’t call every night,
I hoped you were sick the next day,
So I wouldn’t need to see you.
I told a good friend about my troubles,
My troubles of longing for a break-up.
I asked for advice,
Advice about breaking-up.
I talked with him every night,
And soon began to fall for him.
He told me that he liked me,
And I told him I liked him back.
One night we got together,
And he gave me a kiss.
I got butterflies in my stomach,
I knew I liked him much more.
Then one night he asked me if I could be his,
I said yes
Even though I still had a boyfriend.
I felt guilty for my soon to be ex,
Since I hadn’t broken up with him yet.
I planed to end it soon,
On the up coming Monday.
Monday came,
I saw him in the hall.
I was a nervous wreck.
I walked with him and broke him the news,
The news of our break-up.
He was upset,
He tried not to show it,
But I could tell.
We had our last hug,
And said our good-byes.
Three days later he realized,
That I had gotten a new love.
He grew sadder,
I could see it in his eyes.
This made me feel even guiltier,
But then I realized,
That I am better off.
Better off with my new love,
I don’t feel crowded,
My heart is no longer suffocating.
I am not longing to get away,
But I am longing to see more of him.
I am better off with my new love
And I never want to leave him.
He treats me just right,
I have nothing to complain about.
So I have named him,