Monologue?

Did you ever realize what was going on? I really never thought that you did...and I still don't. Even when I was going through all of that stuff, I guess it never was as bad as I made it seem...I have probably lived one of the easiest lives to live...and never knew it. Any time that anything went wrong, it didn't matter how bad it was, I always took the most drastic measure, and ran to you all the time. I guess I didn't think that what I did could really hurt me, really do myself harm...but it did. Hurting myself made me want to do it all the time, never wanting to stop. Even if it was good, I just couldn't get it out of my head. Never-ending I guess...I wish it had.

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