One More Day

This is for my friend, Sydney. She is having a hard time and I just wanted to show her that people still care. This one also goes out to Nancy...

I'm sick of all this.
I just want it to end.
I no longer want
to have to pretend.

I put on a smile,
all for their sake,
but it's not genuine,
it's always a fake.

I sing and dance
as if I'm alright,
but I really am
losing sight.

I don't remember
why I'm still here,
when what I want
is to disappear.

All seems lost
in this thick haze.
I'm wandering along
this twisted maze.

I do so much
just to keep them at ease.
I don't think of myself,
all I do is appease.

It matters to me
what they feel, though.
And this is the reason
I refuse to go.

I think to myself,
what would be lost?
I want to be happy,
but at what cost?

I know in my heart
they do care for me,
it is just hard
for me to see.

I think I am worthless,
I've nothing but failed.
I would pursue love,
but that ship has sailed.

I am here for one reason
and one reason alone.
I am still alive
for everyone I have known.

All my friends that I hold
so close to my heart
would die if we
should ever part.

I know this to be true,
I mean something to them.
They cherish me
like a precious gem.

So for their sake,
I will stay,
and prolong my end
for one more day.