This is my letter

It’s the moment of my death,
And everything is perfect,
The blade running across my skin,
This pain is worth it,
My time is near,
My heart is cold,
I can’t hold on,
To the final string of my soul,
Let me go,
I want to die,
Here is my farewell,
Here is my goodbye,
I love you all,
Don’t forget,
Remember my heart,
And the love it tried to express,
Don’t blame your self,
For my times of trial and tension,
I don’t want your pity,
And I’m not doing it for attention,
When I am found,
Leave my body be,
Just say a prayer,
If you really cared for me,
God will take care of me,
My heart he will heal,
I have to do this,
To see if somehow, I can feel,
This is my letter,
I write to you,
Please don’t try to stop me,
It’s just something I have to do.