A girl mad at herself
sits looking at the mirror
drowning in tears
wondering what her purpose is
she wonders why she is here
she sits listening to her parents
they are screaming and yelling again
its a normal routine
its been this way since she was little
at first the fights were little
but it seems as she grows so do the fights
shes listening to the cussing and the threats
she hears her mom crying and hears a door slam
waits for the sound of her so called loving dad to peel out of the driveway
she finally hears it
rushes to her moms aid scared thinking of the wors
sees her mom sitting there crying
thanking god shes okay
her nights go by like this for years
her and her mom crying night after night
the girl wondering does her dad really care
praying to god he doesnt hit her mom
Then that dreadful night comes
she knows whats going on
moms telling dad its over
her parents think shes asleep
but shes listening to their conversation
there they go yelling again
then she hears her mom screaming
let me go let me up
shes scared her moms her reason for being alive
but she cant move shes to scared
After that shes scared of "him"
that man she calls a dad
she wants him gone
yet wants him here
she yells at herself
blaming herself for all the yelling
she says if only i wasnt born
its all my fault i was born instead of the perfect child
here we are 4 years later
same girl
shes still scared of her dad
but now barely sees him
she still blames herself for everything
she blames herself for the way he treats her
she blames herself for all the yelling
blames herself for not doing anything that dreadful night
