Mummy's drunken tears..

Upon the floor of dirty cold
among the broken pride
familiar taste of blood and dirt
the burning pain inside
i think Ive been here many times
although I'm not so sure
all i know is waking up
laying on the floor
i pick myself up off the ground
...there's footsteps in the hall
i want to run and scream for help
but can not move at all
my arms and legs had failed me
my anger turns to fear
the walls are closing in on me
the footsteps nearly here
i look for somewhere i can hide
somewhere to take cover
a box, a corner.. just not here
a place away from mother
i got down on my knees and prayed
"please God, please hear my prayer
never have i done you wrong
I'm dying but you don't care!"
the footsteps died and silence fell
upon the room of cold
never had it felt so dead
my breathing put on hold
mothers swaying at the door
Psychosis on her face
i close my eyes and scream out loud
GOD SAVE ME FROM THIS PLACE!
no longer can i move my legs
no longer can i see
every part of me is numb
deaths breathing down on me
i turn around to face my fate
i whisper my goodbye
tonight i feel it in my bones
...tonights the night i die
there she stood before my eyes
I'm drenched in stinking sweat
with my final strength i cry
"i loved you, don't you forget!"
disgusted by my lack of plea
my mother raised her fist
on her arm i saw the blood
from where she'd sliced her wrist
there i fell down on my knees
the blood dripped from my ears
the carpet stained by blood and sweat
and mummy's drunken tears..

:(.... sad huh