My Secret Love

I stand for nothing; therefore anything will make me fall,
So when he came into my life, I gave him my all.

His name was Cory, and none of you know,
Why he makes my heart beat, fast AND slow.

He`s such a sweet guy, yet not considered `hot`,
The things he told me were valuable lessons taught.

He taught me how to love, taught me how to hate.
And sometimes I think meeting him, maybe that was fate.

I know we`ll never meet, and maybe he`ll never love me back,
I`ll just have to remember those days when he loved me, and find out what I lack.

I`ll probably do anything to get him--that gets on my nerves,
Not a lot of girls go for him.. But those who do will get what she deserves.

I`ll beat her silly, and make her regret,
Wanting someone I love, the one I`ve never met.

I`ll beat her in my mind, visualize her on her knees,
Saying she`ll leave him alone, no longer wanting to pay her fees.

It`s kind of scary, what love will make you do,
Mostly when it`s one person’s love, rather than two.

I love you Cory, and once you loved me too,
But now I`m yesterday`s news, and I don`t know what to do.

Girls do you feel me? Have you ever felt this way?
Because I think about this boy each and everyday.

Have you ever seen his screen name come up, and you get butterflies inside?
Then realizing that you can`t talk to him—then feeling that you just died?

Sometimes I just sit here and look at his name,
Something I`m not proud of, I am in shame.

But I can`t help it, don`t think I ever will,
I`ll love him forever... Or at least until...

I will always love this boy, for as long as I`m alive,
Because I haven’t thought about him for one day, but for 365.

Love does something to you, and that`s something I`ve learned,
And cyber love is the worst kind, and I`ve been burned.

One day I`ll tell him, eventually he`ll find out,
Then he`ll know the REAL ME and what I`m about.

It`s so hard to let go, so I don`t plan on doing that deed,
So I`ll just continue sitting here, giving him what he needs.

I know he doesn’t love me, and I know he doesn’t care,
But I can`t imagine living my life, without having him there.

Then I remember, that he`ll soon graduate,
So sit here and continue this pointless debate.

I know I`ll lose him someday, but hopefully not soon,
Until then I`ll just continue singing this songless tune.

There are so many other things, that I haven’t said or done,
I just want him to love me back, and then maybe I`ll be his number one.

He`s my first love, but once again, he shall never ever know,
Each and everyday, my affection for him just seems to grow.

I`m not who he thinks I am, and maybe He isn’t what I`ve thought,
But all of my lies and stories, he sat there and unknowingly bought.

I promise myself that I`ll tell him one day,
I`ll finally get the strength to say what I could never say.

Now I`ll end this confession, here I go, ending this rhyme,
Cory I will always love you... Now and forever, until the end of time.