A silent plea, a question asked.
This delighted face is but only a mask;
Tearful nights, fearful dreams,
Highly concealed internal screams.
A giggle here and a giggle there,
Beams of happiness everywhere;
Alone in my room, the joy is vanished.
For strength and sanity I am famished.
Truths and lies, they're all the same,
The unknown difference plaguing the brain.
Let downs ricochet left and right,
I'm searching for reason with all my might.
Worn out whens and tiresome whys,
Frustrated, desperate cries.
Deep inside this feeling lasts
Of undesired disappointments cast.
One more day, one more try;
That I keep telling myself, although awry.
Hopeless wishes, dreams forsaken.
If only the sun in my world would awaken.
