Oh why can't I be 5 again?
Things were so simple then.
No cruel things have been said yet.
In my head, not bad thoughts set.
I didn't want it all to end
I wanted to live, I knew it would mend.
Why can't he fix it all now?
He could then.
Why did he leave?
I was so happy and free
I guess he just didn't want me.
Feeling abandoned, I found a new friend,
but she didn't last, I knew it would end.
I always knew, because, you see,
If my own daddy couldn't love me
then how could she?
I hurt so bad, all the time
I cried out to my daddy
But he wasn't there
Never listening.
Did he not care?
So long I stood there
Waiting for him
No answer ever came
He was lost, and I couldn't find him.
Soon I couldn't fix it anymore
I couldn't hold in all the pain
So again I called to him
No answer, as always, in vain.
I don't care.
Who needs daddy when I have these scissors there?
Deeper I went, as my hurt grew
It felt good to me, it got my through.
Now he's back, and wants to be there
but it's too late
He didn't care
He wasn't the re when I needed him most
And now I have my scissors, three's no more room for him
He filled everything in my life.
Such a big, black, gapping hole he left
Now it is filled with my blood and my tears
No more room for him I fear.
I'm a big girl now.
Daddy can't pick me up, kiss me, and make it all better.
What do I do? Do I trust him again?
Can I even let him back in?
Oh why can't I be 5 again?
Things were so simple then.
